It's funny how you can sit in front of the computer screen all day and still feel so exhausted, at least mentally drained. Because that is exactly how I feel. At the beginning of these series of posts, I wasn't very sure how things would turn out or how in the world I was to do justice to my stories. And I always have that feeling that there is so much more to tell, so many flaws to rectify with an insufficient amount of time in my hands.
But I guess I am changing, in a way. I find myself more accepting of myself-the good and the bad. I feel my love for art and people have expanded infinitely and intertwined together to form this ball of intense joy I get in producing art for people I love. Because of how much heart I try to put into everything I make.
I guess I've also learnt to not push myself too hard. It's hard to find the perfect balance between too little and too much but I am constantly trying. :) I shared this in an e-mail I replied to someone which I felt was a powerful lesson I attained from all of my experiences combined and that is:
Sometimes, things don't go our way. But it's OKAY. The only thing that really matters is our COURAGE to get back up, dust the bad energy off and just keep on going.
The thing about life is that there is no definite beginning and end but rather shifts in your focus on things. The past few weeks especially the most recent one has been gogogo that I don't even remember being spared time to breathe. This is why I felt it so necessary for me to write all this down-find a space for me to just exude all my thoughts, feelings and memories through my eyes, before I get too caught up and fail to miss the beauty in everything that has occurred in my life and the lives of others; before I allow anyone else to change the picture of the way I look at things and life. Know that this is just one raw account and there are countless more perspectives of the same story yet to be told and messages yet to unfold. Even my perspective is subject to change. But for now, this is mine-one of the things I can call purely my own. It will never be a perfectly complete account but as I have learnt, it is okay. And may you take away from it what you can. And keep on learning.
Andrea. (:
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